To say this was a horrible week wouldn’t be the truth, because God is good and in the midst of the turmoil there was joy. But it was a week that I soon want to forget! I work for a company that is truly blessed by God and we are very aware of why our company is successful. However, this week felt like we were the Israelites, lost in the desert (you know He is there but beyond that knowledge you are fighting for proof!). Not only had we been cursed by a downturn in business, but it seemed everything was falling apart around us.
The worst part was one of my co-workers was struggling with his computer and we had a hired a company, to remain nameless, to fix our computers. After 6 days he was frustrated and his temper took over. This co-worker, works upstairs and I shouldn’t be able to hear him. However, I could hear the obscenities being screamed into the phone and things being slammed around. I quickly reverted back to my marriage and immediately shut down emotionally. This made the rest of my life unbearable, I wanted to curl up into a ball and never go back to work. The ramifications of his anger began to spread through the office, until me and the shop manager were getting into it. By the end of the day, I had nothing left. Thankfully I was meeting a good friend for some fun and she quickly cheered me up.
Today the same thing happened with the co-worker and while I was on my walk at lunch I began to ponder my own anger. I have a temper and I do my best to control it and as far as I know I have never yelled at anyone like that(well maybe that one time). But boy have I wanted to! So why would a person let their anger control them like that? I am hypocritical to even ask. Even though I don’t say those things, I think them and I am sure my looks can say them. So how do I change this, or am I destined to always struggle?
Sorry I don’t have the answer…just laying it out here.
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