I hate it when you can feel God urging you forward and you don’t know where to go. All He says is to move and I don’t know which way to go. It all seems so overwhelming, where do I start.
This summer God brought to my heart the verse Psalm 82:3-4, so I actually painted it on to something and I now read it everyday. “Defend the cause of the weak and fatherless; maintain the rights of the poor and oppressed. Rescue the weak and needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked.” Every day I read this verse and feel so incompetent to do what He is asking me to do. I know that if I follow His leading great amazing things will happen. Things I could never accomplish on my own. Yet I stand motionless, afraid to move forward. Then I bargain with God. God I don’t want to do this alone…He has given me a cheerleader and support friend. God, I don’t know what it takes to get it done…He has shown me the steps. God I just can’t do this, I am incapable, and He whispers “I know, but I AM is capable.” So this is where I am at.
All the times I have willingly laid my life at His feet and done what He has asked me to do. It has all been leading to this! Yet I stand here in fear, afraid of rejection, people laughing at me. People just not getting it. I am afraid of hemorrhaging all over ever where, to the point that people won’t even say hi to me for fear of what she might say. But I refuse my life to be worth not. I refuse to stand before my maker and know in my heart that there was more He called me to do, but I was unwilling to sacrifice my comfort, after what He gave up for me.
So I am stepping out of the boat, both feet on the water, eyes on Him. All I ask of you, is to pray for me, hold me accountable to the word of God and listen to my heart as I bleed for those who are unable to speak for themselves.
Did you know that every minute in this world a child is sold into slavery? Did you know that the US is not exempt from human trafficking? Did you know that I live less than 5 miles from the 3rd largest city in the United States for Human Trafficking?
If you want to know more, or how you can help, stay tuned to this blog and I will begin discussing different organizations and how they are fighting against Human trafficking.
“All that is required for evil to prevail is for good men to do NOTHING?” Edmund Burke. Will you stand with me, and just do something??